Throughout my life, I've been witness to many sacred things.
I've stood watch with the dying as they breathed their last.
I've been with new moms and dads as they welcome their children into the world, sometimes against all odds.
I've presided the promises made by two people in marriage covenants.
I've placed baptismal waters on the heads of infants, adults, and even the aged.
I've looked into the eyes of disciples who've come forward with hearts opened wide and hands outstretched to receive the body of Christ, broken for them.
What constitutes the sacred? My sense is that when what is true is known and claimed in the midst of life, in whatever context, then that which is sacred rises. The preamble to "A Modern Affirmation" says it well..."Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is the one true Church..." Or, maybe St. Paul says it better, that "nothing in life, in death, in life beyond death can separate us from the love of God."
The dailyness of life makes that truth no less real. However, dailyness without spiritual discipline dulls awareness of what is always true. And that's where most of us live most of the time.
There's always a sense of wonder, awe, and mystery in the presence of the sacred. And it is in these moments that the inner voice whispers, "Remember what you've seen here, and bear witness to it."
I didn't know what to expect as I traveled out of New York by bus toward New Jersey. I was eager to see my friend, Leslie, again. Having dined with her and her family only days before, I was eager and curious about what the night would hold. And even though I was convinced that the desire of Victor and Leslie was for us to be there, and even though I wanted to be there to spend more time with them, I couldn't help but feel in some small way that we were intruding.
That feeling abated quickly, however, upon arriving. It was a party! Victor, remembering what Kristy was drinking at our dinner a few days earlier, had played bartender and had a spirited beverage ready for her as soon as she walked in. It was a lovely April evening in New Jersey, and the back patio was the place to be. The food? A Polish feast. Poland is the land of Victor's family, and those roots run deep. The cuisine wasn't that familiar to me, and although I didn't eat too much of it, what I had was good.
There was mixing and mingling - the Ohio part of the family was curious about their Swedish cousins they didn't know they had, and vice versa. The lore of family was told for fresh ears to hear (and retold for others who'd heard the tales many times before). We weren't the only folks there; we were not family. Neighbors were there, too. For a time, it looked just like any "get together."
Part of my time there was spent searching through photo albums of long ago. Leslie documented much of our journey at Vanderbilt. Based on the number of photo albums she has, she is keen on documenting life, photographically. So we spent time looking at who we were back then. We were in a sunroom/library. It sparked memories of people I've not seen and for some of them even thought about since 1990. I found myself more than once asking, "Who's that?" I remembered faces readily. Names had faded, as had some of their stories. But the benefit of any witness is to remind you of what you once knew. Leslie's capacity to stoke my recall was remarkable.
We were in a library/sunroom - a place where living occurred. After all, had eaten, and while Leslie and I were looking at photos, Victor came in. With DVD in hand, he turned on the tv and cued up its contents. It was then that I became aware of Victor in a different way. There was a burden...well, not really a burden, but there was a weighty responsibility that he was carrying. Within every family system, we each have roles to play. Among the many that had fallen to him over the years, it was this one...the carrier of the story of family estranged by evil only to be reunited was his to convey. He was the bridge. I sensed he felt the fullness of his responsibility and this opportunity to change the trajectory of a family's story hereon.
The gathered party was summoned to the room where Leslie and I had been reminiscing. And after a few words of introduction, Victor told their story. It's the story of the impact of evil on a people across the generations.
There is a lingering pall that falls on the family of one victimized so terribly. And that was the case for Victor's family. Being the children of a Holocaust survivor is never not in the room when the family gathers. It's the pain of the father that is visited on the children. There is so much loaded in the nature of the victimization. The very recollection of it revealed that the pain is always within reach....it's just right there.
Polish Catholics were also victims of internment and encampment during World War II. And this family was among those impacted. While the details of the story are theirs to tell, the gist of it is this—forced separation. In post-war, one sibling ends up in Sweden where she grows. The other goes to America. Living in the belief that the other sibling is either dead or never again to be found, connections are made and identities confirmed 60 years later.
So a few years ago Victor undertook a pilgrimage to Sweden to meet his aunt and her family. Her name? Wiktoria (Victoria).
It was then that he hit "play" on the DVD and the room witnessed this reunion/introduction. His aunt, who has since died, was in a elderly care facility. Her granddaughters, Camilla and Martina (the young ladies I'd dined with and toured the 9/11 Memorial together only days before), videotaped the introduction and served as translators.
All of us in the room were glued to the television. It was sweet, powerful, exciting, with some sadness added in, too. They communicated with each other through their smiles, the countenance, their teary eyes. The girls guided conversation as they could, but there was so much unspoken that didn't need to be spoken. It was being communicated loudly and clearly. After this long, the grace found in being there with someone else was what mattered most.
And then there was this moment of greatest import. Victor brought a present. It was his grandmother's (bubci), her mother's rosary. Her recognition of what she held was almost instantaneous. She spoke the name "matka" as her frail hands clutched her mother's prayer beads with a combination of reverence and passion. It was these beads that Victor's grandmother, Victoria's mother, had given to him. It was the first thing she had touched of her mother's in 66 years.
Not a dry eye in the room. It was sacred.
Once the video ended, Victor shared the sense of opportunity that lay ahead for their family. The relationships they forge honor the ones who were forced apart long ago. And to that end, even though the family from Ohio and Sweden are as different as can be, what they hold in common is priceless.
In a note I sent to Victor shortly after we had returned to Memphis, I shared with him a sense of what I thought the night meant from what I had witnessed.
It is no small thing to be invited into the telling of a family's story of deepest pain. A pain that traverses multiple generations. It is a pain that speaks to the capacity humanity has to do violence to one another, and the ripples across time that such violence is felt. For many, too many, stories of this sort cripple the ability to love, to feel, to embrace. And like too many survivors and their progeny, they may no longer be in the camp physically, but make no mistake...part of them never left.
But your family has sought liberation. It is a work of grace, to be sure. It takes awareness of what was, the willingness to deal with it openly, and the dogged determination to declare that in the end, Love wins, always. The scriptures speak of being "surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses," who cheer us on as we "run with perseverance the race that is set before us." Victor, my new friend, the cloud of witnesses- the ones who've gone before, the giants upon whose shoulders you all stand, are celebrating with you all and through you all.
I was honored to be there...to witness the sacred..to be there as a family tells its truth...a new truth that changes the trajectory of what will be. That's a God thing if ever there was one.
Monday, June 18, 2012
Friday, June 08, 2012
Clarification of My Remarks at Annual Conference
Seems that in light of the confusion surrounding my statement on the floor the annual conference, that some further word of explanation/interpretation is in order.
The confusion comes primarily from that the fact that due to the poor sound set up with the PA, the people on the dais and the podium could not hear what anyone said on the floor.
First, let me offer a series of admissions.
It was not my intent initially to name Selena as one who had endorsed the candidacy of someone from another conference. When I was called back to the mic to further clarify my remarks, I first thought the bishop wanted me to be more specific. What I later learned was that they literally couldn't make out what I said because they couldn't hear it. While that bell cannot be unrung, my only regret is that I spoke her name without her having the benefit of knowing I was going to do so in advance. The fact of her endorsement is hers to interpret.
What I was seeking initially was this: to remind people that although we cannot bind a delegate to vote for anyone (each delegate is a free agent at that point), the conference needed to understand that although we had endorsed Randy, it was no guarantee that the delegates (whom the conference had elected to represent them them year before), would honor it. It is easy to fall into the world of assumptions that it's a foregone conclusion that the delegates would abide the desire of the conference who elected them. It is not the case. Never has been.
One of the last things that was spoken during the General Conference report was not really a part of the report as much as it was word of caution spoken by Selena to the Annual Conference that we needed to know where our delegates stood on issues before electing them. It is the logic of her point I was trying to make.
A second admission.
I support Randy's candidacy. As I look across the landscape of candidates, there are some who are quite gifted for the work of bishop and will serve the church well. There are others who shouldn't run and will further hurt the church if they are elected.
None of them have heart for the Realm of God held more deeply than Randy. In this time of great systemic distress in the Church, we do not need any more system managers. The system itself must be re-formed. It will not reform itself. It can't. I've already addressed that in previous writings. More than that, however, our bishops must no longer be those who feel entitled because they're next in line, or their CVs are veritable brag sheets of what they've done.
Their love for God, their deepest desire to follow Jesus, and their desire to craft a movement of people in the image of the Acts 2-4 Church is THE thing. All other issues are secondary to that.
I know Randy's heart. I lived in a weekly accountability covenant group with him for a time when we both served in the Jackson District.
Does Randy have the experience of time on the cabinet that other candidates have? No. But so what? Neither did Ken Carder. And our conference has not had a spiritual leader of his kind since. And God knows we need one.
There've been candidates elected preeminently qualified within the system to be bishop, but nary an imagination of any prophetic substance. Systemic experience isn't a sufficient barometer.
System stuff can be learned.
A faithful heart for Christ lived with integrity cannot. You either have it, or you don't. Randy does.
A final admission.
While a delegate must vote as their conscience dictates, to not vote for the candidate from your conference seems to me, in the words my mother uses when something seems just a bit off, to be "tacky." It's just poor form. There's nothing theological about that. It just begs the question, "why?"
Well, there it is. Some thoughts about what happened, as I understood it, and what was driving me, which time at the mic doesn't allow. I hope that clears anything left unclear about my part in this.
In the meantime, I offer prayers for all delegates and candidates for the days ahead. I offer prayers especially for our episocopal area and the leadership we must have in this next iteration of our life together.
Dispatches from Renewal Leave: Witness, Part I
It was Wednesday of our week in New York before I saw Leslie.
She had come into the city with the family from Sweden, her son and his friend, to take in a matinee of "Wicked."
I was attending the matinee of "The Best Man.". Wow, what a show with a veritable murderer's row for a cast - James Earl Jones, Angela Landsbury, John Laroquette, Eric McCormick, Candace Bergan, Michael McKean - unreal, and while the 3rd row seats were an admitted splurge, it was something to see.
Leslie told us to meet them at the West Bank Cafe, just off the theater district. Leslie's husband, Victor, is an actor, and this is a favorite spot of his. I got there first and had time to sit at the bar to take in the atmosphere.
I wasn't at all anxious about the dinner. I was excited, hopeful even.
She walked in several minutes later with her party. Her gait was familiar. In fact I recognized her by her walk as she came in before I could make out her features inside the darkened restaurant. Making my way toward her from the bar she noticed me coming toward her. Hugs, introductions, oohs and ahhs of how we look given the time that's past...and to our table we went.
I was taken by how quickly she and I struck back up after these many years. It was minutes...almost instantly. It was as if we'd all gone through a semester break and were back at Hogwarts as the new year begins.
It is a wondrous thing when there are relationships like that. I have a few. I cherish them all. Certain people operate at the same frequency. We may look and act differently. We may come from different places. But when placed in proximity with one another there is resonance. It is immediate and undeniable. Leslie and I resonate. Years of distance didn't matter. The current moment did.
Shortly a
fter taking to our table, Victor arrived after having spent the day at work filming an upcoming HBO movie. As interested as I was in meeting a working actor, I was even more curious to meet the man who married my friend. Leslie is a formidable spirit. It was going to take a particular spirit to honor her nature and while building a life of meaning.
Our dinner was wonderful. We didn't linger in small talk. Rather, the comfort we found at table in our fellowship was as satisfying as the food we shared. Their son and his friend were charming (the friend was offering to work me a deal for Mets or Yankees tickets..."no problem, I know people.") The young women from Sweden were there. Camilla and Martina, beautiful young women who had come to New York for the week to see the city and to meet family they never knew they had, were open and curious about everything, even stangers from Tennessee. They took this photo around the dinner table.
Having been aware that the moment of meeting was just a few days away, I felt the need to be certain with Victor that I was welcome to be there. I didn't want to be instrusive on what was so obviously a time of great signficance in this family's life. What the dinner confirmed in me was what I think I already knew. Leslie and I resonate. Leslie and Victor resonate. The transitive property of equality (that's right, I used a mathematics reference) dictates that Victor and I would, too. Not only were we welcomed to be a part of the evening to come, I got the sense the Victor was glad to have someone witness it.
It was indeed a night of confirmations.
Some relationships transend time.
Among the things I've done in my quest of this past year in pursuit of wholeness is to do that which I've never given myself permission to do before - tie the disparate chapters of my life together. No longer sequestered from one another, it is the unity of them as a whole entity that defines me.
The relationships I've been able to touch and re-engage prove to me so powerfully that resonance is real. Any regret I feel for not having pursued this earlier in life is mitigated by the joy I feel now in having done so. But when you're lost in the wilderness, how do you even know where to begin to find your way out?
Answer? You take a step. Both literally and spiritually, you take a step. And I've taken many in the past year. Sometimes those steps are as close as the street outside your door. Sometimes it means you catch a bus at the Port Authority into Jersey to observe a sacramental moment - one of profound grace and power, the moment that says, in the words of Archbishop Desmond Tutu, "Goodness is stronger than evil."
Or as I come to think of it, love wins...always.
Next Dispatch from Renewal Leave: Witness, Part II
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Dispatches from Renewal Leave: Leslie
This is Leslie.
I'm sitting in her house in Montclair, NJ, and we're looking at old photo albums of our days together as a part of the community of Vanderbilt Divinity School in the mid/late '80s.
Until last month, I had not seen her since 1992 when she showed up unexpectedly in worship at Asbury. Except for a Christmas card here and there, we'd not kept in touch. I knew she had married and that she had a child.
Such is life, right?
People's journeys intersect ours along the way. Who they are and what they share with you while your lives are engaged in that thing you hold in common leaves its mark. And yet, once that chapter comes to its close, folks move on.
It's the normalcy of life. In it is wrapped the totality of emotion and experience.
Leslie and I were friends, but not to the exclusion of others. We were among a cadre of 12-15 who hung together though the crucible that is Divinity School. We communed and commiserated through the existential crises that's part and parcel of sensing a holy call (in all the varied ways that's manifested), being educated in an historically erudite setting, and all the while relishing in our humanity. At times that was in the extreme. Often it was fun, very fun. It was always intense. Always. We worked hard. We played hard.
How we all found each other is really a mystery. We were all very different. For a time, for a season, we were congregation, therapy group, fraternity and sorority brothers and sisters together (with everything imaginable thereto appertaining). If the instrumental theme from "St. Elmo's Fire" is swirling in your mind, it applies.
We all left The Divinity School, went our seperate ways and took up our charge to live out the call and do the work...."Ministers as Theologians" were we.
Reconnecting has been among my most pressing spiritual work through the emergence of my wilderness. Aspirations for physcial health, being what they are, had to be balanced with renewed work within. No inward work can have integrity unless it's expressed outwardly. That's as basic as understanding faith and righteousness itself.
When I knew I was taking renewal leave some months ago, and I knew I was going to spend a week in New York, I thought I'd try to find Leslie. Had an old email address. She's not on Facebook. I wasn't sure she still lived in the area. So, I did what anyone would do in this situation. I "Googled" her. Lo, and behold, she had a website. I clicked the link, and up popped this very professional headshot with details of her counseling practice as well as contact information.
I reached out. She responded enthusiastically. Back in my Vandy days, when being relevant mattered more to me than it should, I wasn't "Johnny." I was "John." That's how those folks know me.
"John!!!! Yes! I can't wait to see you."
The next week she called me to tell me that the week I was coming might be a challenge and wanted to make sure I was ok with it.
"What's going on?" I asked.
"Well, my husband's family from Ohio are coming in that week to meet part of the family they've never known before who are coming in from Sweden, and I'm playing tour guide and host."
"I certainly don't want to get in the way. If something works out, great, and if not, that's ok." I said.
"You won't be in the way," she said, "it could just get 'intense.'"
Leslie always had a way of saying the word "intense" that was, well, intense.
Leslie always had a way of saying the word "intense" that was, well, intense.
"Why have they never met before?" I asked.
"My husband's father and his sister were separated after the war....they survived the Holocaust, and after 60 years their children have found each other. This week at my house will be the introduction."
"Wow! We don't want to intrude." I said.
"You're not, and Victor (her husband) wants to meet you."
"Leslie, we wouldn't miss it."
And we didn't.
Next Dispatch from Renewal Leave: Witness
Monday, April 30, 2012
Intractable
We interrupt this renewal leave for just a few minutes of reflection.
in·trac·ta·ble
[in-trak-tuh-buh l]
- adjective
1.not easily controlled or directed; not docile or manageable; stubborn; obstinate: an intractable disposition.
2.(of things) hard to shape or work with: an intractable metal.
3.hard to treat, relieve, or cure: the intractable pain in his leg.- noun
4.an intractable person.
I've observed the proceedings in Tampa these past days.
I've done so only through the words of those there, some of whom I know well and hold with deepest respect and affection, as well as others I know who are there for whom respect and affection are not the first thoughts that rise up in me ( it's my spirit work to do on that front, I admit freely).
I've not watched it online. I've not needed to. There are enough of you out there doing it for me - commenting and linking by the hour it seems. Right, Dad?
Some thoughts going into the home stretch (an apt image given the Derby is coming, and soon).
What we are seeing in Tampa is the product of a system so entrenched, so intractable that even if the winds of Pentecost were to blow through the place we'd be inclined to complain that it's interrupting the ever so important work we've come to do.
In a time when the world moves fast and systems and structures must adapt to be relevant, we continually demonstrate that ours is incapable. It's not entirely our fault. As my friend Sky recently commented, we've reaped what we've sown. And yes, I knew exactly what he meant.
Place incapability alongside unwillingness, and you've a deadly duo.
And let's be clear, we are unwilling.
We are unwilling to change. On a personal level, we understand how hard that is. How do you like when you are told you need to change? Get your back up a bit? Now imagine that feeling on steroids and wrapped in religious rhetoric. There you go.
Why are we unwilling? Why are we incapable?
A word first about the latter. Ours was a system from its inception that had built in protections from dramatic change. It's baked into the cake. There's some wisdom in that, no doubt. But we've met change slowly and often after the ship has sailed.
Historically, we've displayed capacity to adapt to social change more quickly than systemic change, but that has not always been the case. The Social Creed of 1908 was a masterwork of its time reflecting the influences of the Social Gospel and the emergence of industry's effect on people. Read it. It still holds up.
But we've not always been so bold.
We equivocated on slavery. We were embarrassingly slow on women in ministry and then patted ourselves on the back for how forward thinking we were. We change only after the issue is no longer prophetic in witness, just a sad commentary on why it takes us so long to do the God thing.
Systemic change though is another thing altogether. It's a tough one. Once established, systems seem to live on held together with the glue of arrogance that the world must adapt to the realities of its existence, not the other way round.
Unwilling? You bet. What we're seeing in Tampa is a global delegation who arrived convinced on certain questions. There is no room for the Spirit to move if you're already locked in on how you'll vote on certain questions based on the constituencies who have you in their back pocket.
There's nothing wrong with differing perspectives seeking to get theirs to you in advance. I signed the Common Witness statement. I did it because the Church is wrong and needs to change. I did it because this is not an issue, these are people, people I know, people I love, people whose faithfulness to Christ often places into judgment my own. I believe...no, I know it is the more faithful response to the call of God than what we're currently observing, but beyond showing support, my signature doesn't mean anything.
What does have meaning is the willingness of those gathered to stop acting like Congress whose members have been sufficiently lobbied (with all that entails) who find it their sole mission to placate the gods of the special interests that put them there, and act more like disciples of Jesus Christ whose measure of faithfulness is whether or not we are following him.
Consider, we purport to be carriers of Good News that liberates, and yet we behave as if we don't need it. It's hard to make disciples of Jesus Christ for the transformation of the world when you're not open to being transformed.
We need to stop acting like we've arrived, and act more like people willing to follow wherever that leads us.
But that takes faith. And courage.
And when our intractability so supersedes our faith it then reveals our highest priorities...it doesn't matter how well we wrap them in religious speak, when our priorities and our votes persistently protect the ways we want and how we want them....the truth is before us.
The inability and unwillingness to adopt change of any kind - be it in structure, authority, or true inclusion have nothing to do with God and everything to do with a system impotent to reform itself.
Biblically speaking, think of it as hearts hardened, or the lack of power shown in the face of unbelief.
Absent substantive reform we've two options remaining---revolution, from a split (not likely because even that takes courage), or cascade collapse from the inside out as a result of a system that values its survival over faithfulness.
Nothing is more arrogant than thinking that the Realm of God can't come into being in its fullness unless The United Methodist Church is there. And while no one would say it quite that way in Tampa, we're acting like it's etched in stone.
Unless we show we've the capacity to move, to follow, to exercise faith it may just be etched in stone.
A tombstone.
But that may not be so bad. What's this Easter thing about?
I've got two more weeks---I'm out.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Eight
Eight years.
So much has happened in eight years.
So much life lived.
I look at my children and see what eight years looks like.
I look at myself in the mirror and there they are etched in winkles and grey hair.
Eight years ago our family lost Jimmy.
For most of those eight years it was my open wound whose pain I could not hide despite my best intentions to do so. It revealed itself in my appearance, demeanor.
Whoever said time heals all wounds is full of shit.
It doesn't.
God's grace does--in the people who love you and see you through, no matter what, even when you don't want to be loved. I'm blessed to have a few of those people in my life. I've not thanked them for who they are to me like I should. They're not seeking it.
We've all had to deal with the impact of Jimmy's life and death in our own way. My sister and my parents have had their own pains to wrestle with and through. Jimmy's wife and son are eight years in living life and seeking to do it well.
And so have any of you who knew him.
Make no mistake about it, the kid left an impression.
Eight years on I'm realizing he still does.
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So much has happened in eight years.
So much life lived.
I look at my children and see what eight years looks like.
I look at myself in the mirror and there they are etched in winkles and grey hair.
Eight years ago our family lost Jimmy.
For most of those eight years it was my open wound whose pain I could not hide despite my best intentions to do so. It revealed itself in my appearance, demeanor.
Whoever said time heals all wounds is full of shit.
It doesn't.
God's grace does--in the people who love you and see you through, no matter what, even when you don't want to be loved. I'm blessed to have a few of those people in my life. I've not thanked them for who they are to me like I should. They're not seeking it.
We've all had to deal with the impact of Jimmy's life and death in our own way. My sister and my parents have had their own pains to wrestle with and through. Jimmy's wife and son are eight years in living life and seeking to do it well.
And so have any of you who knew him.
Make no mistake about it, the kid left an impression.
Eight years on I'm realizing he still does.
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Saturday, March 24, 2012
It's Always in the Room
This post contains unedited, racially charged language. If that offends, good. It should. God knows it did me to write it. But we can't deal with what we won't address.
Treyvon Martin is dead.
I believe he's the victim of a crime....a hate crime. That, at this hour the person who pulled the trigger is not in custody propagates the perception that black kids, especially young black men are to be suspected, feared and a problem to be handled and "extreme prejudice" is a justifiable solution.
By all accounts, not least of which is the 911 tape, George Zimmerman was possessed to profile and pursue Treyvon. But why? What was it that deafened George's ears to ignore the order of the 911 operator to stand down?
Was it rage demanding action after a rash of thefts?
Was it lust for recognition that George was the neighborhood watch hero?
Was it a perceived need to protect territory from certain people who dress a certain way who were invading his space?
Whatever was true about why Treyvon sought cover from the rain, as he stood under the awing of an apartment complex clubhouse, on his way back home to catch the second half of the NBA All Star Game--to George, moved to get out of his vehicle, pursue Treyvon, brandish his 9mm, place his finger on the trigger and pull it, what is clear is this - Treyvon received no consideration whatsoever. And why should he? Unless my ears deceive me, to George, Treyvon was not a kid packing skittles and ice tea seeking cover from the rain as he took a short cut home. He was a hoodie wearing thug. He was a "fucking coon."
It's not unusual that when something occurs so egregious that the population collectively recoils at its injustice. The tendency, however, is that we isolate the issues the event raises to the place it occurred. True enough, Sanford has a history. In this case alone, how is it that Zimmerman wasn't placed into custody immediately, even if he was "standing his ground (how one stands one's ground when pursuing someone is a neat trick)? How is it that the weapon involved wasn't placed into evidence? Why was Treyvon's corpse drug tested but not Zimmerman?
Every community has a history. Some more tortured than others, but all communities do.
I've heard too many commentators in their relentless (if not fruitless) pursuit for relevance, set up the rhetorical straw man that it's so hard to believe that in the 21st Century we still have to deal with issues of race...as if but for the few caricatured reprobates out there we'd have the whole racial thing licked.
It's about the dumbest thing I've ever heard. The web of issues intertwined in all that occurred in Sanford that day are not the exclusive domain of that Florida town. The truth that must be acknowledged is this - they reside first in the human heart. As such, it's always in the room.
Always.
I don't care how enlightened you think you are...how above it all you position yourself to be, if there is someone else in your presence...anyone else, it's in the room.
Awareness of difference is as fundamental as realizing that "you" are not "me." That which is different impacts each of us, well, differently. As does different differences elicit different responses.
He's white. She's poor. They're gay. These folks don't speak my language. He's a right winger. She's a bleeding heart liberal. They live on the other side of the tracks. While some differences prompt interest, curiosity and open willingness to know and learn something of humanity that we've not yet seen; other differences bring the response that those who are different must be perceived as a threat.
Any set of differences that gives rise to the thought "and you know how those people are," is a reliable indicator that those differences threaten.
Each of us must wrestle with the implications of "different than." Some of us celebrate difference in what we believe to be a sign of God's Realm. But even the most open minded and open hearted of us must confront the reality that not all our responses to difference are particularly holy.
George Zimmerman's reaction was based on a multitude of factors. It's hard to imagine that race was not chief among them. We all get to see the consequence of his reaction...a young man is dead, a family grieves, and Treyvon becomes another symbol of a long struggle.
The national media doesn't broadcast my responses to difference. But God knows my heart..which is too bad because there's much I try to hide. We who follow the way of Jesus know only too well that our responses to differences are to be molded in the way he did. How we accept the stranger is a sign of our faithfulness.
I can say "I love God" and that "God loves me" all day long. But those words fall empty in the absence of real outward expression. And I can only express my love for God outwardly by being in relationship with "you," whoever you are and with whatever particularities of difference from me in which you were created. My job is not to make "you," "me." It's to celebrate the "you" you are in relationship with "me" thereby creating "we."
Jesus embraced difference because he never ignored this truth....
It's always in the room.
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Treyvon Martin is dead.
I believe he's the victim of a crime....a hate crime. That, at this hour the person who pulled the trigger is not in custody propagates the perception that black kids, especially young black men are to be suspected, feared and a problem to be handled and "extreme prejudice" is a justifiable solution.
By all accounts, not least of which is the 911 tape, George Zimmerman was possessed to profile and pursue Treyvon. But why? What was it that deafened George's ears to ignore the order of the 911 operator to stand down?
Was it rage demanding action after a rash of thefts?
Was it lust for recognition that George was the neighborhood watch hero?
Was it a perceived need to protect territory from certain people who dress a certain way who were invading his space?
Whatever was true about why Treyvon sought cover from the rain, as he stood under the awing of an apartment complex clubhouse, on his way back home to catch the second half of the NBA All Star Game--to George, moved to get out of his vehicle, pursue Treyvon, brandish his 9mm, place his finger on the trigger and pull it, what is clear is this - Treyvon received no consideration whatsoever. And why should he? Unless my ears deceive me, to George, Treyvon was not a kid packing skittles and ice tea seeking cover from the rain as he took a short cut home. He was a hoodie wearing thug. He was a "fucking coon."
It's not unusual that when something occurs so egregious that the population collectively recoils at its injustice. The tendency, however, is that we isolate the issues the event raises to the place it occurred. True enough, Sanford has a history. In this case alone, how is it that Zimmerman wasn't placed into custody immediately, even if he was "standing his ground (how one stands one's ground when pursuing someone is a neat trick)? How is it that the weapon involved wasn't placed into evidence? Why was Treyvon's corpse drug tested but not Zimmerman?
Every community has a history. Some more tortured than others, but all communities do.
I've heard too many commentators in their relentless (if not fruitless) pursuit for relevance, set up the rhetorical straw man that it's so hard to believe that in the 21st Century we still have to deal with issues of race...as if but for the few caricatured reprobates out there we'd have the whole racial thing licked.
It's about the dumbest thing I've ever heard. The web of issues intertwined in all that occurred in Sanford that day are not the exclusive domain of that Florida town. The truth that must be acknowledged is this - they reside first in the human heart. As such, it's always in the room.
Always.
I don't care how enlightened you think you are...how above it all you position yourself to be, if there is someone else in your presence...anyone else, it's in the room.
Awareness of difference is as fundamental as realizing that "you" are not "me." That which is different impacts each of us, well, differently. As does different differences elicit different responses.
He's white. She's poor. They're gay. These folks don't speak my language. He's a right winger. She's a bleeding heart liberal. They live on the other side of the tracks. While some differences prompt interest, curiosity and open willingness to know and learn something of humanity that we've not yet seen; other differences bring the response that those who are different must be perceived as a threat.
Any set of differences that gives rise to the thought "and you know how those people are," is a reliable indicator that those differences threaten.
Each of us must wrestle with the implications of "different than." Some of us celebrate difference in what we believe to be a sign of God's Realm. But even the most open minded and open hearted of us must confront the reality that not all our responses to difference are particularly holy.
George Zimmerman's reaction was based on a multitude of factors. It's hard to imagine that race was not chief among them. We all get to see the consequence of his reaction...a young man is dead, a family grieves, and Treyvon becomes another symbol of a long struggle.
The national media doesn't broadcast my responses to difference. But God knows my heart..which is too bad because there's much I try to hide. We who follow the way of Jesus know only too well that our responses to differences are to be molded in the way he did. How we accept the stranger is a sign of our faithfulness.
I can say "I love God" and that "God loves me" all day long. But those words fall empty in the absence of real outward expression. And I can only express my love for God outwardly by being in relationship with "you," whoever you are and with whatever particularities of difference from me in which you were created. My job is not to make "you," "me." It's to celebrate the "you" you are in relationship with "me" thereby creating "we."
Jesus embraced difference because he never ignored this truth....
It's always in the room.
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